To err is human...

To forgive is divine??

This was something that took place three days ago. I could not find the right words to describe my feelings. A friend came to see me to compliment how smart I am as I had passed PTK with very good results (twice, in fact; DG41 & DG 44). Almost a month ago, the same person had backstabbed me and said very inappropriate words about me to another friend. And, I havent done anything to him (yes, its a guy, we normally assume all this will come from a woman' s mouth!) Too bad; I definitely heard it loud and clear, not from one person but three different people)

I guess age is really catching up on me. It did not anger me (as normally it would!) although somehow it upsets me. And, to have the same person facing me , sweet talks and with lots of compliments , really made me so uncomfortable. I am not a hyprocite person and I do stand on my principles; I may forgive but how could I forget? And, in the first place, if he never says the three magic words, how on earth could I extend my forgiveness?

I tried to just forgive and forget; tried to ask Allah to calm me...but I know, it has a tendency to happen again and again....he's forgiven now and before I could expect, he will do it again (backstabbing!); I am tired emotionally as I have been tested on this matter again and again.

Please pray that I can become more forgiving to this particular person....